Grace: waterfalls in drought

This is the best news everrrr!

You don’t need to clean yourself up before coming to God. He came down and took the dirt on Himself. Died so we could live. The work’s done. We get to receive God’s AMAZING love. We get to receive Jesus!

Everyone who believes that Jesus is the Christ has been born of God, and everyone who loves the Father loves whoever has been born of him.  By this we know that we love the children of God, when we love God and obey his commandments. For this is the love of God, that we keep his commandments. And his commandments are not burdensome. For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith. Who is it that overcomes the world except the one who believes that Jesus is the Son of God?

This is he who came by water and blood—Jesus Christ; not by the water only but by the water and the blood. And the Spirit is the one who testifies, because the Spirit is the truth. For there are three that testify:  the Spirit and the water and the blood; and these three agree. If we receive the testimony of men, the testimony of God is greater, for this is the testimony of God that he has borne concerning his Son.  Whoever believes in the Son of God has the testimony in himself. Whoever does not believe God has made him a liar, because he has not believed in the testimony that God has borne concerning his Son.  And this is the testimony, that God gave us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. Whoever has the Son has life; whoever does not have the Son of God does not have life.

1 John 5:1-12

This love is for everyone. No matter what you’ve done. If you accept Christ and live for Him, you’re free.

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When Jesus walked the earth, He spent time with the least of these. Prostitutes, tax collectors, lepers, fishermen. Jesus calls those blessed who realize their need for a Saviour. Today, if you feel empty, if you know you can’t do this alone. That’s a really good realization.

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Don’t stop at spiritual bankruptcy. Let your neediness drive you to God.

It’s better to be desperate for God. To be empty. To be at the end of yourself. Than to have it all together. Or to think you don’t need God. The reality is we all need help. Blessed are those who realize their need! There is mercy and steadfast love waiting for  you at the foot of the cross– The Kingdom of Heaven is yours!

I am SO aware of my incompetency apart from Christ. Without Him I’m hopeless, lost, in darkness, confused, broken, destroyed. With Christ, I am healed, whole, loved, made new, safe.

There is a way that seems right to a man,
    but its end is the way to death.

Proverbs 14:12

In John 14:6, Jesus said “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”

The way we think is right leads to death. God’s way–Jesus–is truth and life.

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Jesus, the Son of God, is the answer. Will you humble yourself and seek truth?

If anything in this post struck a chord in  your heart organ, talk to God about it now. He’s waiting to hear from you. He loves you. Honestly tell God how you feel–your struggles, doubts, fears, thoughts. He already knows. But He desires to hear it from you, because He loves you. Wherever  you are, whatever you’re going through, no matter how far you feel from God, He is with  you. Right now, right here. He’s listening. He’s waiting. Go to Him…<3


A Mother’s Heart

I’m pregnant. About to pop, really.

Eight months or so ago, when the faint double pink line emerged from underneath my pee stream, I gobbledeecroomageaddeon! What is gobbledeecroomageaddeon!, you ask? Why it’s the feeling a woman gets when the test says yes. For some, gobbledeecroomageaddeon! equals elation. For others, terror. My gobbledeecroomageaddeon! was: there’s a herd of buffalos stampeding towards me but I can’t run because I’m a MERMAID!!

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Or something like that.

And so, as I attempted to flop my fin-butt away from charging, oversized mammals, it quickly became evident that I could not. JESUS, HELP!

I was not big-belly, serene mamamaid overnight:

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Nope.  That “pregnancy glow” was my sweat glands vomiting.

My brain went something like this:

I have no idea what I’m doing. How can I be a mom?! I don’t know how to care for a baby. Let alone raise a child. What if this, what if that, what if….. GOBBLEDEECROOMAGEADDEON!!

With all things, God’s way is the truth. I gathered my placenta brain and opened the Bible.

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Fear is not from God!

Father, I thank You that You have not given me a spirit of fear. I thank You for giving me a Spirit of power, of love, and of self-control.

Slowly, like the bun rising in my oven, God delivered me from fear by helping me respond in faith towards scripture.


God gives us, not some, but ALL things needed for life and godliness!

In Christ, I have everything I need to be this baby’s momma.

The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.

Psalm 23:1

 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places

Ephesians 1:3

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Philippians 4:13

When curious friends, family, and strangers touching my tummy ask if I’m scared to give birth or raise a human, I smile and express gratitude towards God. Jesus changed my motherhood, my gobbledeecroomageaddeon!, from fear to faith.



The Only Thing That Matters

In the circle of dawn to dusk, man pursues many things. There is one thing that surpasses them all. Indeed, to lack this one thing makes all else vain.

Relationship with God.

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Better than anything this world offers, a relationship with God is like treasure. To find Him, is to lose everything, to have the only thing.

Prayer, fellowshipping with God, is backbone to relationship with Him.

The Bible says to pray constantly (1 Thessalonians 5:17). Prayer is both listening and speaking with Him. The Bible also says to be quick to listen and slow to speak (James 1:19). Ecclesiastes 5 says it is better to draw near to listen than to offer the sacrifice of fools.

I’m reading the Psalms now. It’s amazing how honest and raw they are. The Psalms encourage me to make my heart fully known to the Lord, while always remembering truth. Honest prayer.

Not to forget the Holy Spirit. Our Helper, spirit of Truth, Teacher, Guide, Comforter, and so much more.

It’s easy to think: if only Jesus were physically here with me.


Jesus said it is better that He go and the Holy Spirit come! If we truly believe this, it changes everything! The Spirit of Christ is alive inside of us!! Woah!

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The best and only thing that matters, is knowing Jesus. I encourage you to go into  your room, close the door, and spend time with Him. No matter if you’ve gone to church for decades, or you’ve never thought of God before, He’s waiting to meet with you.

The God of the universe loves you. Go to Him, just as you are.

Yesterday’s post, How to Stay Out of Prison, discusses living out relationship with God, too.

How to Stay Out of Prison

The Israelites were enslaved to the Egyptians. However, God never forgot about them.


God delivered the Israelites through a servant, Moses. When the Egyptians chased the Israelites, not letting them go, God’s mighty, outstretched arm supernaturally parted the Red Sea. His people could cross through and be free of slavery.

Afterwards, in the wilderness on the way to the Promised land, God continued to take care of the Israelites. He gave them water from a rock and bread from dew. Most of all, His Presence was with them in a pillar of cloud by day and of fire by night. He chose them as His treasured possession. He loved them.

God desired they love Him back through covenant obedience. To listen and obey His voice. To be set apart, holy. To be His. He asked them simply to have faith, despite the wilderness surroundings.

In the same way, all human beings are born into sin. Enslaved to sin. God loves us. So He sent Jesus, His Son, to set us free. Jesus shed His blood by dying in our place on the cross. This is akin to the cross-ing of the Red (blood) sea. God made a way. Jesus is the way to life. For those who cross God’s way, there is freedom.

And you were dead in the trespasses and sins in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience—  among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind. But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved— and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus,  so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.

Ephesians 2:1-10

We are saved by grace through faith. Grace is Jesus taking our place on the cross / parting of the Red Sea. Faith is receiving Him as Lord / believing in the wilderness. Faith, our response to God’s grace, is how we remain in Him because He’s set us free. Loving Him back through listening and obeying. Enjoying covenant relationship with the God of the universe!

Remember the Israelites? After God set them free, they had a choice: To believe God and obey, or to disobey. They chose the latter.

The New Testament of the Bible includes warnings for Christians concerning the Israelites:

For I do not want you to be unaware, brothers, that our fathers were all under the cloud, and all passed through the sea,   and all were baptized into Moses in the cloud and in the sea, and all ate the same spiritual food, and all drank the same spiritual drink. For they drank from the spiritual Rock that followed them, and the Rock was Christ. Nevertheless, with most of them God was not pleased, for they were overthrown  in the wilderness.

Now these things took place as examples for us, that we might not desire evil as they did. Do not be idolaters as some of them were; as it is written, “The people sat down to eat and drink and rose up to play.”  We must not indulge in sexual immorality as some of them did, and twenty-three thousand fell in a single day. We must not put Christ  to the test, as some of them did and were destroyed by serpents,  nor grumble, as some of them did and were destroyed by the Destroyer.  Now these things happened to them as an example, but they were written down for our instruction, on whom the end of the ages has come. Therefore let anyone who thinks that he stands take heed lest he fall.  No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

Therefore, my beloved, flee from idolatry.

1 Corinthians 10:1-14


Therefore, as the Holy Spirit says,

“Today, if you hear his voice,
do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion,
    on the day of testing in the wilderness,
where your fathers put me to the test
    and saw my works for forty years.
Therefore I was provoked with that generation,
and said, ‘They always go astray in their heart;
    they have not known my ways.’
 As I swore in my wrath,
    ‘They shall not enter my rest.’”


Take care, brothers, lest there be in any of you an evil, unbelieving heart, leading you to fall away from the living God. But exhort one another every day, as long as it is called “today,” that none of you may be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin. For we have come to share in Christ, if indeed we hold our original confidence firm to the end. As it is said,

“Today, if you hear his voice,
do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion.”


For who were those who heard and yet rebelled? Was it not all those who left Egypt led by Moses? And with whom was he provoked for forty years? Was it not with those who sinned, whose bodies fell in the wilderness?  And to whom did he swear that they would not enter his rest, but to those who were disobedient?  So we see that they were unable to enter because of unbelief.

Hebrews 3:7-19

Today, all who believe in Jesus are free! We, like the Israelites, have a choice. Will we remain free by obeying, or disobey and fall away?



Soften your heart. Listen to God. Receive His Son, His love and love Him back through obedience! Through following His narrow way: crossing the Red Sea, believing in Jesus.


Another word for ‘abide’ is ‘remain.’ We must remain in Christ through faith. No matter our feelings, thoughts, or situations. Test and weigh every feeling against Scripture. Take thoughts captive and make them obedient to Christ. Remember truth no matter what happens. Trials are tests of faith. Remain. Be loved. Love. Give thanks. Enjoy God’s rest.

Stand firm!


One day, (SOON!) it will allllll be worth it.


Fully Surrendered

Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.
Matthew 10:39 ESV

Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith— that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, that by any means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead.
Philippians 3:8‭-‬11 ESV

“The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and covered up. Then in his joy he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field.
Matthew 13:44 ESV

Then Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what shall a man give in return for his soul? For the Son of Man is going to come with his angels in the glory of his Father, and then he will repay each person according to what he has done.
Matthew 16:24‭-‬27 ESV

To the Tired

Are you tired? Do you feel like you’ll never be good enough?


About a year and a half ago, I was in a rehab program when God told me this verse. Exhausted & weary, carrying the weight of all my burdens and pain, I knew I needed the rest Jesus offers.

Where are you? Do you know that you need rest? Not just a physical rest–yes–but also a spiritual rest.

Christ is our rest. The good news is Jesus provided our way to be made right with God. No amount of striving or trying to earn salvation will do a thing. We can never be good enough.


Jesus laid down His life for you. Believe Jesus loves you.

When you die and stand before God–just you and Him–and He asks you why He should let you into His Kingdom, what will you say?

Actually answer that.

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If your answer began with “I” and then a reason of your own “goodness” or deeds, it will not pass. Romans 3 says that no one is righteous. Not one. Going to church won’t save you. Having Christian parents won’t save you. Doing “good” things or trying extra hard to be good will not cover you. That’s called religion. It’s of the devil.

While Jesus hung on the cross, He said: It is finished. Rest in the finished work of God on your behalf. This is grace. There’s nothing you can do to earn your way to Heaven. Salvation is a freely given gift, to be received through faith.

God wants relationship with  you through Jesus. Not religion.

He wants  your heart.

The best part is Jesus died so we can be in covenant relationship with God right now. Yes, eternity with God will be awesome. This freedom, the Kingdom of God, is at hand. It’s now. When we truly know God, He transforms us from the inside out. Makes us reborn. Fills us with His Spirit. Sets us free. A relationship with God is not praying a prayer once to go to Heaven then continuing to live however you want. A relationship with God is total surrender and dying to self. Being made alive: a new creation. To live is Christ, to die is gain.

If you want to know God, you can! Go to Jesus.

God doesn’t “put up with you.” HE LOVES YOU. You’re His treasured creation. Go to Jesus. Enter God’s rest. Discover fellowship with God. He’s calling your name.


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Thank you for loving us. I pray for each person that reads this blog. May they know you.

stop decorating your hotel room

“wanna see my green card?” she said. though weird, I consented. the slender stranger at the restaurant pried a small, green rectangle from her wallet, presenting it with pride. A picture of her, grinning wide with big sparkly eyes, framed the bottom left corner. beside it was her citizenship: Heaven.


as I scanned the card, filled with scripture, my face lit up. she smiled too. “my Bible study leader gave it to me. I take it everywhere.”

like my new friend with her “green card,” Christ-followers need daily reminders: this world is not our home. this life is a mist; we are passing through.

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if a Frenchman came to America for a 1 week stay, would he purchase expensive paintings to adorn his hotel room walls? would he seek plush couches and elaborate potted plants, fancy rugs or satin sheets? other than his suitcase of a few outfits, a simple bed, and a noisy mini fridge with leftover pizza, his room would hold just what he needed–nothing more or less. afterall, it’s only a week.

why do we seek comfort on earth if it’s not our home?


one of the number one idols in America is comfort. it’s what keeps many of us asleep. keeps us from pursuing God and pressing in. God promises we can know Him, when we seek Him with all our heart. what’s stopping you from going all in? what’s holding you back from knowing the God who made you and loves you?

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for those of us who do know Christ, we cannot have one foot in the world and one in heaven. we don’t “fit in” to this world.  we’re set apart and living for eternity.

we have hope!


remember: this is not our home. we’re living for HEAVEN–God’s presence!  it’s going to be AWESOME! this life is a breath! eternity is forever!

if you haven’t received Jesus, your forever is destined separate from God. if there’s breath in your lungs, there is mercy available to you. turn to God and surrender all to Him. before it’s too late!